While I sat zazen yesterday the battle with thoughts begun again. Then, after a long while, I realised that in fact it’s not thoughts I’m against, it’s my internal judge. It’s a process of my mind which is there all the time evaluating my sitting and reprimanding me for not doing it right. I know this part of me pretty well, it comments most of what I do in the same way. No one can judge my actions harsher than part this part of my ego. But once I realized it and focused on relasing my judgements, once I denied them energy it all became much easier.

I won’t go as far as to say that I won or that meditation is a breeze now. Nothing of this kind. But I’m just a tad, a bit closer to just sitting. A bit closer to waking up.