Andy's Mind

I spoke with a friend over a glass of porto last Friday night. Later he did send me a song by Coldplay, “What If”. The lyrics are as follows:

What if there was no light
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don’t want me there by your side
That you don’t want me there in your life (more…)

I had a strange thing happen to me this morning. While going to the airport I chatted with the taxi driver. I mentioned how where I’ll be next year depends on a woman. Somehow we started to talk about love and how unique and important it is to find that one special person meant for us. And then the driver, a middle-aged man, told me his story. (more…)

Tonight I realized one thing. To experience something amazing, full of joy and intensity, we have to believe it is so. Otherwise we don’t see it, we are like someone who is colorblind. And something important, maybe the most important of all the things in our life, may just pass us by. And we won’t recognize it was even there.

A flower is beautiful not because it objectively is, it is beautiful because we believe in it. If we didn’t it would be just a reproductive organ of a plant, something commonplace, that will surely wither and die one day. Same object, two ways of experiencing it.

Indeed, reality is not fixed and objective. It’s something our minds cook for us. Skepticism, disbelief, pessimism are conditions of the mind that cause it to experience a limiting, stressing, sadly grey world. There must be some cure for them, I just wish I knew what it is. Because it is so sad to see people I care deeply for suffer from them. And not being able to pull them out.

So, the 2007 is here. 2006 becomes a thing of the past. Not as big a leap forward as 2005 was, but still I made some progress. I would summarize it as an “ok year”, even though it ends in sorrow.

2007 is going to be a tough one. I feel it. It will start uphill, with lots of challenges. But it would also be a year of change.

I believe in the end what is strong will prevail, love will prevail over fear – but it won’t be quick or easy. Nothing of value is easy.